Tightrope

Joseph Broghammer (learn more by clicking on the image)

Hello Sunday.

I'm up after a long night into early morning session, of what I'll call "getting it together." Lately, I've been coming up against tough love. Friends, mentors, the good folks who have seen me through multiple break-ups, career changes,the evolution of my sexuality, and the push-pull factors in my Oakland work, each of them have given me a push. One I want to believe is meant to be genteel, but while my shoulders are already struggling to lift towards the sky- lately these nudges have felt a little like... I'm getting punked.

In all kindness, I know that they are just tired of hearing about my obstacles. The kind that get in my way. The ones I create, only to quickly trip over. The kind, especially that look like, you. Yes, the YOU who I see everyday looking back at me in the mirror. Speaking of mirrors, my closet now has become my mind's canvas. Broken down in three sections. The one I'll mention here is the cluster of post-it's that are about completing my thesis. Here we go letters. I'm going to ink you at the end of my last name: MA.

The theme for my life right now: walking on tightropes.
The style to get to the other side: carefully.

So far September has been about having the hard conversations. The talks that mean breaking open, but with the full intention of being able to put yourself back together. I've conversed in ways that challenge how I typically spill. Spill words, spill feelings, spill demands. Oh a Pisces being able to say exactly what she means, saying what she wants to say without the fear that the person engaged in the talk- will not like what they hear. Oh talk about the professional bleeding into the personal. The style in which I carry myself: RIDA. I am learning to say what I need. Mean it. And keep moving across this rope. I've been able to laugh and stay light, with no fear of being considered apathetic. In fact, I care deeply. Love wildly. And I am simply learning how to keep the focus. Own the things that have been cutting me, and h e a l. I need to finish. The letters again, microphone? Are you on??

MA.

iCal here we gooooo..

Until I return here, this Om will keep the page warm. It was one of the first things I read this morning.

Warmly,
m

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Daily OM
September 12, 2010
Expectations as Guidelines
Pisces Daily Horoscope

Your thoughts could be directed toward your long-term goals today and how your future prospects could expand your horizons. Envisioning the opportunities that await you might infuse you with thrill of the potential that exists in the unknown. Although you may have a set idea about your expectations of the future, perhaps this would be a good time to recognize the fact that the future is malleable and inexplicable. If you can remain open to the fact that there are infinite possibilities that you may not have thought of yet today, you may find that your goals serve merely as a means to direct your intentions to an outcome. Thinking about what can happen in this way could not only give you a sense of excitement, it might also prepare you for whatever changes to your plan may occur.

Our hopes are guidelines that can lead us to places we never before imagined. When we envision a more specific view of our future, we are in fact limiting ourselves to a set picture of what we want. Rather than constricting ourselves in this way, we will gain more from using our expectations for inspiration and then letting life take us where it may. Remembering that we can look forward without being attached to it will almost always lead us to expanded and exciting experiences. Using your goals to look into the future without holding onto a set result today will increase your desire to see what delight the future will bring.


FOOLISH HEART