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mookey and me.
"it was a great summer, wasn't it?"





i took a nap around 9p.m. nhatai wanted me to sleep and so she had me go back under the covers to get some much needed rest. she had to twist my arm, and call me cracked-out before i finally listened. i know, pisces womyn, challenging. or is that just the tenacity of a ferrer womyn? hmmm.. i woke up to tapping, light knocking on my door, till finally a birthday boy's head coming through my window. well, it's not even a real "window" considering it separates me and shiela's room. yes. quite a setup, but we make it work. the universe has strange ways of articulating "full circle" which is what i believe both me and my dear pinsan are really living out.

so back to this birthday boy, with his head coming through my window. although i may have said some not so friendly things during the fiasco, after they all left there was an energy in my home that i needed. my home, which i've lovingly called "the womb" can often feel very secluded and i can sometimes go really dark here. i have had so many moments of completely missing my family. i've teared from wishing things were easier and money didn't seem to get harder. today mookey is 27 and he's been so loving this entire day. i mean, he's been quite reflective these last few days leading to his bornday. yesterday, i spent most of the day hanging out among the crowds of the castro street fair, seeing familiar faces, connecting with people i thought maybe.. put temporary road blocks on bridges... yet.. it was all love. 360 degrees. so here i am. up and working on school. knowing the days ahead, i'll be up late getting myself ready for another teaching weekend. kg is suppose to come over thursday. i'm glad. again, the energy coming into my home, is needed. in huge dosages.

i better get back to this last piece before starting my homework due in tomorrow's research methods course. teaching third period, a funder meeting before heading back into the city, bring pep book home for charmaine.. another meeting with ashley on wednesday. everything is full, but i know this is what i'm suppose to be doing right now. my life is unfolding exactly as it should. i'm grateful for the people in my life seeing me through this time.

yes.. while i'm
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