chasing my own car

things are falling
into
place

i leave my expectations behind
and learn to vision instead.

it has been a crazy ride

its hard to have to "explain" when i run into people
what happened
why am i HERE?
or rather,
why aren't i THERE??

i'm learning to be kind to myself.

i'm remembering everything beautiful about the last year
and trust that my decisions came from a heart place--
my best intentions made real.
however way i can protect that part of my life
i am going to.
that part of my story was painful
but in the end
it was still growth that happened.
i believe
for us both.

she meant something to me
she still does


and


she
always
will.