Daily Om for Today....

I wanted to leave this here as a marker to the recent conversations I've been having. It is hard sometimes to accept that those things you envisioned once upon a time, you find is not your present. It becomes almost natural, to be a little less kind to yourself. The self-esteem aches in places you really wish didn't, but bruising is expected when things are changing. Growing pains, do just that, hurt. I know that my intentions come from a heart place, so I'll be sure to hold that truth close to me as the weeks unfold. I am realizing I learn best once I go through the experience, and learn things on my own. A dialectical exchange must happen. Not a dictation. A memory from body needs to occur, for it to be truly learned. Well, at least for me.

I'm going to bed after a long weekend. I have additional teaching hours coming up to outreach for the program, so it is imperative that I stay on point with what I put into my body. I have to be sure to eat really well this week. I need to drink lots of water and cleanse with tea. Energy exchange, energy withdrawal, and energy preservation needs to be on the mindful tip. I'll be in the city perhaps Monday or Tuesday to see Lola. Off to the islands, and I want to see her and give her a huge hug. Of course, give her some spending money for her to enjoy on the trip home. I haven't seen Lola Maria since......... July. (Insert internal monologue/ turmoil here.)

Here's to an eventful weekend. To the unconditional love of young people, to the breaking of white people stereotypes, to finding remedies for back pains caused by long drives... for beaches (even the cold ones in the city), for Cajun shrimp with Cha Cha Cha's special sauce, Haight street, stretched ears, literary events, for revolutionary narratives and the path to finding healing and self-love... to voicing appreciations, to dry cleaning drop offs... to learning to stop hurting yourself, to accepting the responsibility to hold other people's feelings.... to music, to crossing bridges, to smiles on people's faces........ let Monday come, tomorrow. For now, it is still technically Sunday, so I'll soak up the last few hours and make them great.

Night world,
m.

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October 18, 2009
Creating an Opening
Pisces Daily Horoscope

You may feel enriched by your experiences today, which could lead you to seek more purpose and fulfillment in other areas of your life. You may be considering a career change or releasing old relationships that no longer match the vision you hold for your future. One good way to free yourself from burdensome situations today is by spending time purging the unnecessary from your life. Perhaps you feel tied to activities you no longer enjoy, or your budget could use a clearing and organizing session to better serve your long-term goals. Clearing away these old situations will make you feel lighthearted and free to attract what you truly want.

By clearing out stagnant situations that no longer contribute positively to our lives, we create an opening for better circumstances to enter. We often try to attract better circumstances into our lives because we feel dissatisfied, but we forget the importance of clearing out old, stagnant situations first. When we consciously release unhealthy relationships, unfulfilling jobs, destructive habits, or limiting beliefs that prevent us from feeling happy about our lives, we create a feeling of freedom and lightness that also gives us the clarity to better know what we really want. At the same time, we create an opening for the universe to form better circumstances, and we are emotionally ready to accept them when they arrive. If you make an effort to clear away the old in all aspects of your life today, you will be making room for new and exciting circumstances to enter.